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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 07:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[what lennon confesses to, it's no surprise to him. if he'd stopped there, daeshim probably wouldn't have thought anything more about it. but lennon asks him to think about it. it's not a bad thing. it probably means that lennon has learned him well. but the fae is surprised at where his own thoughts lead.]

I think...it would bother me if Bae liked you more than he likes me.

[it doesn't feel good to say it. it even feels wrong, in a way. but it's the price of not being able to lie and not being willing to play with words when he's talking to those who are close to him. a part of him even wishes that he could pull away from lennon, because it might help him think more clearly. but he's not willing to do that either.]

It should not. He's not the Bae that I knew and loved, but...

[it still feels like he's been rejected, even if he knows that he's not the daeshim that he knew and loved either.]

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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 07:41 pm (UTC)(link)
We are also something special.

[and that's the other half of it, more similar to lennon's insecurities than either of them probably realizes. daeshim has been removed from his world and everyone in it. lennon has anchored him to this one. sometimes he does feel like he's all that he really has in it. some of the fae's selfishness can't be blamed on anything but himself. it's all a work in progress.

oh. he blinks a couple of times, and this is easier. (for him, ha.)]


We did. Just imagine if you had been a girl!

[that's probably not as easy for a human to imagine. maybe.]

I would have to bring you two cups of hot chocolate sooner or later.
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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 08:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I can.

[he tilts his head to the side. lennon has cradled him as a mushroom for no less than three days, he's seen it for himself. and even that is harder than what the other is thinking about.

it still takes him a minute or two to understand the reason for the other's awkwardness, what he's really saying.]


Oh! Then it would be you bringing me two cups of tea.

[just kidding. daeshim would still want to bring him hot chocolate.]
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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 09:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[daeshim reaches out, cupping lennon's face between his hands. it's hard to tell what he's thinking, or what his response might be despite everything. he has his most serious resting b face on - resting blank face, that is.]

Yes.

[there's more, but that's the most important part. so he's going to let it sink in first.]
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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[a smile appears on his lips too. he doesn't know how much it means to him, but he also does. he remembers lennon's reaction, and it's one of the first things that he wanted to talk to him about. of course it's meaningful.]

We must make sure that we can stay together. Here, or the Ruinwood. As long as you're not returned to your world, we'll be fine.

[family shouldn't be ripped apart.]
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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[magic is what he does, what he is. even with this world's strange magic, if there's a way he will find it. the spirite of the ruinwood will help him. he kisses him back, lips curving against lennon's in another one of his short-lived smiles.]

I know.

[...bitch, you are not han solo, you'd better-]

I love you too.
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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for saying it.

[daeshim's voice is soft and sincere. because he knows that it's not easy for lennon to say, and it is so nice to hear it. it makes his entire body feel warm.

what he says next is also sincere, it's just. daeshim is his own content warning.]


Especially before you saw my vagina.
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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 10:15 pm (UTC)(link)
It's very nice!

[that lennon is romantic, not his- well that too, probably. daeshim starts to giggle immediately after, though it's unclear if he has an ounce of self-awareness or if he's just laughing because lennon is.]
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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 10:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Good.

[his laughter tapers off into a sigh as he just rests against him. there's no hurry to do anything else.]

You deserve to be happy.
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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Mm.

[daeshim tries to nod without disturbing the other too much.]

It is amazing. I've never used it like that before.

[it was mostly when he was a younger fae, whenever the mood struck him.]
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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not sure Bae or Jasper even knew.

[maybe they did without him actually showing them. years of being with him in the forest might've led them to understand just how fluid fae can be. fluid enough that daeshim didn't think it worth mentioning.]

Tickles.

[the nuzzling. it's not a complaint, he likes it.]
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[personal profile] faeshim 2022-05-28 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, that's true.

[he never gave it much thought, and he isn't at that moment either, choosing to focus on the feeling of lennon's lips, the happy curve of them against his skin followed by a kiss.

after that, he does.]


Is it much different?

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