[ Lennon appreciates the other's reaction even if it's true, the order's not what matters... and... it's hard to stop thinking once he starts. He bites his lip briefly and looks away from Daeshim for a moment and the whisky is already open and still in hand. ]
You don't.
[ He worries someday that might change. There's so much he doesn't know or understand about Daeshim. And it's been a long time since he had someone that he wanted to know more about...that he would let himself show this more vulnerable side to instead of plastering on a fake smile. He knows how to fool people. ]
[he's...he's glad for that, more than he thought he'd be. dae is so disconnected from the human world. there's so much that he doesn't understand either, and he doubts he ever will. but he does understand some things about lennon. and the things that he doesn't...well, he thinks he could accept them anyway.
he seems to consider it when lennon tells him to go ahead and make the ramen. but after a moment he just opens the package and takes a big bite out of the block of crunchy uncooked noodles.]
[ Lennon feels his heart squeeze when the other makes the decision to eat them uncooked, to just stay with him instead even though it wouldn't even take that long to make them. Scooting closer he rests his head on the other's shoulder. ]
Will you drink with me, though?
[ It's not so bad if they drink together, right? And plus he is curious what the other would be like on alcohol. He can't deny that. ]
And then you could bite me wherever you want to.
[ He adds, his own playful bite at at the other's shoulder but it has no pressure to it at all. ]
[there's no pain in his heart, and no celebration either, but the bottle of alcohol doesn't intimidate him. ...hopefully lennon will be ok with a few vines here and there if he does drink too much.
he offers his ramen block, but it's understandable if lennon refuses.]
And then you can try to forget about them even more. You're not theirs anymore, you're mine. [which reminds him... dae squints and turns, almost sliding into lennon's lap to look at him eye to eye.] Hey what happened to that boy you kissed?
[ Lennon's eyes brighten and he shakes his head at the offer of the ramen. He doesn't avert his gaze, though, meeting the other's eyes and he'll try his very best to forget them at least for a while. The strangeness of the feeling of being Daeshim's has a weird effect on Lennon. Sometimes...
Sometimes, he feels like there's something deeper there and then sometimes it feels like maybe Daeshim claims him as his because he's a thing to be possessed. And he'd never mustered up the will to ask, to press for answers. Maybe he never would. His eyes lower eventually as he thinks about that boy and there's another pang of sadness.
Since he's already opened the bottle he brings it to his lips to take a sip. It's not the best way to drink whiskey but when your goal is to get drunk fast it's effective. He makes a face, shaking his head slightly and he waits for the other to ask or reach for the drink so he can choose his own time to start. ]
I never really talked to him again.
[ They'd been best friends but that discovery had torn them apart. Lennon had lost everything. Another drink. ]
You don't have to worry about him, or anyone else. You're the only one that gets me to touch me.
[ He sells his body on screen but Daeshim gets to touch him. ]
[it's true that daeshim uses strange words sometimes, lacks vocabulary for things that fae don't experience or because of his own solitude. but that doesn't mean that he's without his tells. the way he protests so quickly, the color on his cheeks that blooms and dies... of course he was worried. he has good reason to worry. they will never completely understand one another, it's impossible. lennon is human, he belongs with humans. but it's like all daeshim sees or hears about are humans hurting or using him.
that's why he declared him "his". to justify his enraged feelings and gives him the right to do something about it, because fae don't like anything that's theirs being fucked with.]
You'll drink it all up! [he quickly takes the bottle and downs a drink without thinking, which results in a coughing fit and a scrunched-up face.] Looks like piss, tastes worse.
[not that he's ever...he's not that weird. dae holds the bottle in one hand, takes another bite of the ramen that he holds in the other. left with no hands, he just has to lean against lennon's chest with his chin resting on his shoulder.]
[ Lennon just smiles a little to himself at the protest, at the way the other reacts and it... makes him kind of satisfied. He doesn't explore why it pleases him so much.
He laughs outright when the other takes a drink and he shakes his head as the other leans on him and he rubs a hand down the other's back absently. He reaches to snatch back the bottle so he could take another drink. ]
The more you drink the better it tastes.
[ Lennon promises and takes another drink himself and he still grimaces a little as it goes down but already it does go down easier. ]
[maybe too good. sometimes it doesn't let you stop. daeshim leans back to watch as lennon takes his next drink, and barely lets him pull the bottle away before he's leaning in to press his mouth against the human's.
the kiss deepens, daeshim licking a little of the taste from lennon's mouth before he leans back again.]
[ Lennon asks with a brow raised but he doesn't take it too seriously. He enjoys whisky even when it's hard to drink. His eyes follow the other's movements but as he pulls the bottle from his mouth they close.
Kisses from Daeshim might be the best chaser he's ever come across. He parts his lips, and moans softly as the kiss deepens if but briefly. He sighs when the other pulls back and raises a brow.
Silently, he takes another drink, pressing his lips back to the others again. He's tipsy and he could easily get lost in this instead of drinking himself stupid. ]
[he's not sure fae wine would be good for him, but deashim can't explain why so he says nothing.
and that seems to be fine, as long as they're kissing. lennon returns, tasting like alcohol and then tasting like lennon. he likes the latter the most, the leftover ramen block tumbling from his fingers so he can touch his face instead.
kissing is strange, still is, but not in a bad way. fae do have physical relationships - he never did. but regardless, kissing isn't a part of it. and dae was fascinated from the beginning.
the longer it continues, the warmer he feels, until some of that warmth spreads from his fingertips and a flower blooms just behind lennon's ear.]
Oh. Pretty.
[dae blinks a few times, still close but catching his breath.]
[ Lennon moans quietly as the other touches him, tilting toward his touch. He presses closer, tongue teasing against the other's. Kissing Daeshim always feels good, it fills Lennon with warmth. There's something that always feels real about kissing Daeshim like there's no motive behind it except that he wants to, that he likes Lennon and enjoys this in the moment.
It's easy to get lost in it. His hand curling against the other's back until at some point they part. He takes a deeper breath, lids heavy from both the effects of the whisky and more so the effects of Daeshim. His tongue darts out against his lips and he feels something somewhat different behind his ear. ]
What?
[ He asks, although, he's already starting to move closer to kiss him again. ]
[and that's true. but he also doesn't want lennon to be alarmed by any spontaneous little displays of magic, especially when he's already admitted to still be coming to terms with the fact that dae isn't human.
so he welcomes another kiss, focuses on it probably more intently than he's supposed to. but through it he learns the exact softness of his lips, the taste of his mouth, and what he can do to make the human make those little sounds again.
his hands eventually find the hem of lennons shirt, and then sneak underneath it to touch his skin.]
[ Lennon gives him a slightly doubtful look but he also just wants to start kissing again. He tastes Daeshim, explores him as the other explores as well. The other seems to pick up on the certain ways to tease his lips or tongue that leaves him mewling or moaning in response. The kisses grow a little more intense on Lennon's part the longer it goes, the more desire heats up inside of him.
At skin to skin contact under his shirt he moans, breaking the kiss but just to bite at the other's bottom lip, sucking it after and keeping his eyes mostly closed. He's breathless. ]
I want you.
[ Lennon states the obvious and he doesn't care. ]
[it's not the most wordy response, nor the most romantic, but it's honest. he can count on daeshim for that much, to be honest and to always share his thoughts, even if they sometimes end up being something of a riddle.]
I want you too.
[he at least remembers that much a moment later. it's something that's obvious to him, but lennon might feel better after hearing the confirmation. his hands move to lift his shirt up and off so that his hands can explore more and higher. nakedness in and of itself means nothing to daeshim, but seeing this one person in a half-state of it...it's different. it means something. dae's eyes roam over the other's chest with something akin to wistfulness in his eyes.]
[ Lennon doesn't need a lot of words. What matters is when Daeshim talks he's sincere. He means what he says and Lennon is fairly certain the other has never lied to him. That means more than Dae can probably understand.
He smiles and maybe it's the whisky but it makes him feel emotional. He turns his head, blinking his eyes quickly. The thoughts of how his family doesn't want him, how even his friend had decided he didn't want him after they got caught -- all of that had been right there and then Daeshim so easily says that he wants him.
It just makes him want him more and he lifts his arms so the other can get the shirt off and out of the way. The way the other looks at him? That makes him feel wanted too. He knows that he is, in fact, wanted. He can't quite name the expression that he sees in Dae's eyes but that he's looking at him is enough.
He reaches to his cheek and pulls him into another kiss. His lips parted to allow it to deepen quickly. ]
[daeshim is drawn into the kiss, follows lennon's lead until he's giving him what he wants. he's always been a fast learner, and this was no exception.
he slides away again too soon, but it's with a purpose. dae sits back, a little flushed and out of breath.]
I want to do what you do. [wait. too vague.] Film me. Tell me what I should do.
[daeshim frowns a little when he's asked why, and his temperamental nature almost gets the best of him. but he takes a moment to think about it instead.]
Because. I want you to feel the way that I do when I watch you.
[off to the side sometimes, seemingly uninterested but actually curious.]
[he notices the slight shiver going through lennon's body though. daeshim seems to hesitate about something, but after a moment reaches out to press his hand against the other's chest. right over his heart.]
...Or you could film us both. You can do that, right?
[ Lennon's heartrate raises at the other's touch, he tilts his head at the idea of filming the both of them together. He can't deny that definitely turns him on. He licks his lip, biting lightly before he nods. ]
I'll start with filming you and then... I'll join you.
[ He presses another kiss to the other's lips but quicker this time. ]
You aren't just wanting to do this because of the drinking, right?
[he knows that it must have something to do with it, or lennon wouldn't have asked. so he just shakes his head.]
Okay. What do I do? Oh, wait! Is it this?
[daeshim lies back, letting his head rest against the couch and one hand sliding slowly along his body. he looks at the other from beneath heavy-lidded eyes. yeah, he might be doing the same thing that he's seen him doing on his streams. it's effective, okay.]
[ Lennon smiles and honestly with that answer, the shake of the other's head... he's pretty sure the other's not actually all that intoxicated. Lennon's probably more drunk than he is. Which, he's pretty good at functioning while drinking.
He starts to open his mouth but stops short when the other just... starts. He reaches to turn on a camera he has, adjusting the tripod and trying not to look away from the other for even a second. Once he's satisfied with the angle he gives the other his full attention.
It doesn't matter if he's imitating what he's seen Lennon does -- it has a completely different feeling when watching Daeshim do it. ]
Tell me... what you want right now while you're touching yourself.
[his hand pauses. oh right, this isn't about putting on a show, or at least that's not all of what it's meant to be. there are also thoughts and feelings behind his actions, things that dae has to take a moment to explore as closely as he explored lennon's body.]
I want...you to like me.
[it's painfully simple. even daeshim knows that the other is looking for something a bit more, so his eyebrows draw together as he thinks about it.]
I want it to be your touch. [his expression relaxes again, his hand resuming its path until it stops over the front of his pants.] And your kiss. Not just on my lips, but everywhere else too.
[ Lennon bites his lip as he watches the other thing, as he watches the other's hand move over his body. His eyes slowly lowered to the other's groin. He smiles and maybe another time he'd drag this out, let the other really put on a show for him but...
He wants to touch and be touched. ]
I like you a lot.
[ Instead of moving onto or beside the other he kneels in front of him, pushing his legs part as he squeezes between them. His hand goes to the other's shirt pushing it up. He knows that the camera is set up to get them both in the shot.
His hands move to the other's pants and he slowly undoes them.]
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You don't.
[ He worries someday that might change. There's so much he doesn't know or understand about Daeshim. And it's been a long time since he had someone that he wanted to know more about...that he would let himself show this more vulnerable side to instead of plastering on a fake smile. He knows how to fool people. ]
Make the ramen and drink some with me.
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he seems to consider it when lennon tells him to go ahead and make the ramen. but after a moment he just opens the package and takes a big bite out of the block of crunchy uncooked noodles.]
They're good this way too!
[it's faeshim for "i won't leave you".]
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Will you drink with me, though?
[ It's not so bad if they drink together, right? And plus he is curious what the other would be like on alcohol. He can't deny that. ]
And then you could bite me wherever you want to.
[ He adds, his own playful bite at at the other's shoulder but it has no pressure to it at all. ]
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[there's no pain in his heart, and no celebration either, but the bottle of alcohol doesn't intimidate him. ...hopefully lennon will be ok with a few vines here and there if he does drink too much.
he offers his ramen block, but it's understandable if lennon refuses.]
And then you can try to forget about them even more. You're not theirs anymore, you're mine. [which reminds him... dae squints and turns, almost sliding into lennon's lap to look at him eye to eye.] Hey what happened to that boy you kissed?
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Sometimes, he feels like there's something deeper there and then sometimes it feels like maybe Daeshim claims him as his because he's a thing to be possessed. And he'd never mustered up the will to ask, to press for answers. Maybe he never would. His eyes lower eventually as he thinks about that boy and there's another pang of sadness.
Since he's already opened the bottle he brings it to his lips to take a sip. It's not the best way to drink whiskey but when your goal is to get drunk fast it's effective. He makes a face, shaking his head slightly and he waits for the other to ask or reach for the drink so he can choose his own time to start. ]
I never really talked to him again.
[ They'd been best friends but that discovery had torn them apart. Lennon had lost everything. Another drink. ]
You don't have to worry about him, or anyone else. You're the only one that gets me to touch me.
[ He sells his body on screen but Daeshim gets to touch him. ]
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[it's true that daeshim uses strange words sometimes, lacks vocabulary for things that fae don't experience or because of his own solitude. but that doesn't mean that he's without his tells. the way he protests so quickly, the color on his cheeks that blooms and dies... of course he was worried. he has good reason to worry. they will never completely understand one another, it's impossible. lennon is human, he belongs with humans. but it's like all daeshim sees or hears about are humans hurting or using him.
that's why he declared him "his". to justify his enraged feelings and gives him the right to do something about it, because fae don't like anything that's theirs being fucked with.]
You'll drink it all up! [he quickly takes the bottle and downs a drink without thinking, which results in a coughing fit and a scrunched-up face.] Looks like piss, tastes worse.
[not that he's ever...he's not that weird. dae holds the bottle in one hand, takes another bite of the ramen that he holds in the other. left with no hands, he just has to lean against lennon's chest with his chin resting on his shoulder.]
I want to.
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He laughs outright when the other takes a drink and he shakes his head as the other leans on him and he rubs a hand down the other's back absently. He reaches to snatch back the bottle so he could take another drink. ]
The more you drink the better it tastes.
[ Lennon promises and takes another drink himself and he still grimaces a little as it goes down but already it does go down easier. ]
I want you to.
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[maybe too good. sometimes it doesn't let you stop. daeshim leans back to watch as lennon takes his next drink, and barely lets him pull the bottle away before he's leaning in to press his mouth against the human's.
the kiss deepens, daeshim licking a little of the taste from lennon's mouth before he leans back again.]
...Tastes better that way.
[and already he feels more intoxicated.]
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[ Lennon asks with a brow raised but he doesn't take it too seriously. He enjoys whisky even when it's hard to drink. His eyes follow the other's movements but as he pulls the bottle from his mouth they close.
Kisses from Daeshim might be the best chaser he's ever come across. He parts his lips, and moans softly as the kiss deepens if but briefly. He sighs when the other pulls back and raises a brow.
Silently, he takes another drink, pressing his lips back to the others again. He's tipsy and he could easily get lost in this instead of drinking himself stupid. ]
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and that seems to be fine, as long as they're kissing. lennon returns, tasting like alcohol and then tasting like lennon. he likes the latter the most, the leftover ramen block tumbling from his fingers so he can touch his face instead.
kissing is strange, still is, but not in a bad way. fae do have physical relationships - he never did. but regardless, kissing isn't a part of it. and dae was fascinated from the beginning.
the longer it continues, the warmer he feels, until some of that warmth spreads from his fingertips and a flower blooms just behind lennon's ear.]
Oh. Pretty.
[dae blinks a few times, still close but catching his breath.]
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It's easy to get lost in it. His hand curling against the other's back until at some point they part. He takes a deeper breath, lids heavy from both the effects of the whisky and more so the effects of Daeshim. His tongue darts out against his lips and he feels something somewhat different behind his ear. ]
What?
[ He asks, although, he's already starting to move closer to kiss him again. ]
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[and that's true. but he also doesn't want lennon to be alarmed by any spontaneous little displays of magic, especially when he's already admitted to still be coming to terms with the fact that dae isn't human.
so he welcomes another kiss, focuses on it probably more intently than he's supposed to. but through it he learns the exact softness of his lips, the taste of his mouth, and what he can do to make the human make those little sounds again.
his hands eventually find the hem of lennons shirt, and then sneak underneath it to touch his skin.]
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At skin to skin contact under his shirt he moans, breaking the kiss but just to bite at the other's bottom lip, sucking it after and keeping his eyes mostly closed. He's breathless. ]
I want you.
[ Lennon states the obvious and he doesn't care. ]
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[it's not the most wordy response, nor the most romantic, but it's honest. he can count on daeshim for that much, to be honest and to always share his thoughts, even if they sometimes end up being something of a riddle.]
I want you too.
[he at least remembers that much a moment later. it's something that's obvious to him, but lennon might feel better after hearing the confirmation. his hands move to lift his shirt up and off so that his hands can explore more and higher. nakedness in and of itself means nothing to daeshim, but seeing this one person in a half-state of it...it's different. it means something. dae's eyes roam over the other's chest with something akin to wistfulness in his eyes.]
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He smiles and maybe it's the whisky but it makes him feel emotional. He turns his head, blinking his eyes quickly. The thoughts of how his family doesn't want him, how even his friend had decided he didn't want him after they got caught -- all of that had been right there and then Daeshim so easily says that he wants him.
It just makes him want him more and he lifts his arms so the other can get the shirt off and out of the way. The way the other looks at him? That makes him feel wanted too. He knows that he is, in fact, wanted. He can't quite name the expression that he sees in Dae's eyes but that he's looking at him is enough.
He reaches to his cheek and pulls him into another kiss. His lips parted to allow it to deepen quickly. ]
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he slides away again too soon, but it's with a purpose. dae sits back, a little flushed and out of breath.]
I want to do what you do. [wait. too vague.] Film me. Tell me what I should do.
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You want me to film you...?
[ He tilts his head, looking confused and he straightens up a little. ]
Why?
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Because. I want you to feel the way that I do when I watch you.
[off to the side sometimes, seemingly uninterested but actually curious.]
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But just for me, right?
[ He feels a chill with having his shirt off now and the other's body not close anymore, his hands not on him exploring him. ]
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[he notices the slight shiver going through lennon's body though. daeshim seems to hesitate about something, but after a moment reaches out to press his hand against the other's chest. right over his heart.]
...Or you could film us both. You can do that, right?
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I'll start with filming you and then... I'll join you.
[ He presses another kiss to the other's lips but quicker this time. ]
You aren't just wanting to do this because of the drinking, right?
[ He has to be sure. ]
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[he knows that it must have something to do with it, or lennon wouldn't have asked. so he just shakes his head.]
Okay. What do I do? Oh, wait! Is it this?
[daeshim lies back, letting his head rest against the couch and one hand sliding slowly along his body. he looks at the other from beneath heavy-lidded eyes. yeah, he might be doing the same thing that he's seen him doing on his streams. it's effective, okay.]
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He starts to open his mouth but stops short when the other just... starts. He reaches to turn on a camera he has, adjusting the tripod and trying not to look away from the other for even a second. Once he's satisfied with the angle he gives the other his full attention.
It doesn't matter if he's imitating what he's seen Lennon does -- it has a completely different feeling when watching Daeshim do it. ]
Tell me... what you want right now while you're touching yourself.
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I want...you to like me.
[it's painfully simple. even daeshim knows that the other is looking for something a bit more, so his eyebrows draw together as he thinks about it.]
I want it to be your touch. [his expression relaxes again, his hand resuming its path until it stops over the front of his pants.] And your kiss. Not just on my lips, but everywhere else too.
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He wants to touch and be touched. ]
I like you a lot.
[ Instead of moving onto or beside the other he kneels in front of him, pushing his legs part as he squeezes between them. His hand goes to the other's shirt pushing it up. He knows that the camera is set up to get them both in the shot.
His hands move to the other's pants and he slowly undoes them.]
I'll kiss you in a lot of good places.
[ He promises. ]
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