when I make art… it’s like putting me, the most raw
version of me… it’s part of why it’s hard to share. It’s pain, happiness,
love, memories…. It’s hope. I… trust you but sometimes some feelings I’m
not ready to be seen.
Since… that… I feel guilty and like it’ll hurt you
if I make anything else that I’m not ready to share. So I haven’t made
anything with it or with anything else.
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Just because…
[ He hasn’t felt like doing art since their fight that day. ]
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it’s… more because all I can remember is it hurting you and being hurt… and… I don’t know.
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can you do something with the pain?
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mm. I could, probably.
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Really?
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it might not be the same. i do not know.
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when I make art… it’s like putting me, the most raw version of me… it’s part of why it’s hard to share. It’s pain, happiness, love, memories…. It’s hope. I… trust you but sometimes some feelings I’m not ready to be seen.
Since… that… I feel guilty and like it’ll hurt you if I make anything else that I’m not ready to share. So I haven’t made anything with it or with anything else.
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maybe i don't want to see anymore! maybe i don't even like art and i'm not curious at all.
then it would be ok, right?
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but I know that’s not true. And I want you to be interested! I just also want you to be patient with me and try to understand.
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I’m trying too. I promise I’ll be better for you.
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Not if it hurts you.
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I don’t want to fail.