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[adistraction]

[ …he finds that hard to believe. No one’s cared. Not for a very, very long time.

He just makes a ‘shy’ sound and continues to rub the others back.

The effect this place is having, is conflicting with the way his brain works and it’s making him tired. He just wants to sleep.

He swallows and tucks his chin so he can press his eyes to the others shoulder instead. ]

Once this is over it’ll be okay.

[narcolepsy]

[ the tone of baein's voice should hold no lies or deceit, he's just being completely honest, even in the midst of his own turmoil brought on by too many things.

baein shifts to he can rub hunter's back in turn, hearing the tiredness in hunter's voice. ]

Mm... for all of us.

[ because of course he knows hunter is probably dealing with something similar to what baein has. ]

[adistraction]

[ there’s a different sort of comfort Hunter gets here. Just enough warmth to help his guard slip…

He murmurs softly so only Bae can hear. Not that it matters.]

I’m sorry I overstepped with you…I won’t do it again.

[narcolepsy]

[ baein's senses are amplified as a vampire, hunter might as well have spoken clearly with how loud it sounds to the prince. ]

I don't understand. You have not overstepped anything.

[adistraction]

[ he just buries himself closer. ]

I shouldn’t have kissed you.

[ shouldn’t have done half the things he’s done since he got here. ]

[narcolepsy]

[ baein breathes in air he doesn't need. ]

...I kissed back.

[ there's a lot of things that are confusing and he wishes he hadn't done quite a few things too. but... that part, he didn't mind. it was odd, yes, but... ]

[adistraction]

Only cause of what’s happening. Whatever this is.

[ hesitantly he lifts his head and gently feels at the soft ends of the others hair, he smiles light and gives it a tiny tug. ]

Doesn’t have to happen again.

[narcolepsy]

Mm...

[ baein shifts his head into the tug with a soft noise, but doesn't try to pull away. he makes for a sigh, one that feels fake like any other time he's done anything that requires a person to breathe air. ]

I'm sorry. I didn't— I shouldn't have kissed back. If it made you uncomfortable.

[adistraction]

Didn’t say it made me uncomfortable or that I didn’t like it.

[ he carefully threads his fingers through his hair again. ]

It’s just…all of you are connected. I don’t want to complicate any of that. I’m not…

[ there’s a string of negative words in his head that he doesn’t say. He just lets that drop and kisses Baeins forehead. ]

We’re okay.

[narcolepsy]

[ he looks up at that, expression a little confused. ]

We're definitely connected, you and I.

[ have you seen us. ]

[adistraction]

[ cute. Stop it. He smiles again and shakes his head. ]

Well, yeah. But I mean, not the way…you are with Jasper and Daeshim. Lennon is in there, too, now. I’m not part of…any of that.

[narcolepsy]

...

[ he ducks in again to just hug hunter. it takes a moment before he replies, and it's a little hesitant and quiet, as if he's sharing something that he really hasn't addressed. ]

I know the feeling you're describing. Dae... Dae said that I do this a lot too. Stand to the side... and I do feel like that, like I don't belong in any of this.

[ another squeeze before he looks up again. ]

I don't want you to feel like that too.

[adistraction]

[ like before, his body almost melts under the others attention. Hugs…are really nice.

They aren’t copies of each other, versions of the same person but, they’re similar enough to have that in common. As sad as it is.

Hunter sighs softly and worries his lip. ]

I don’t feel like that with you. I don’t know why that is. You’re like an anchor in all of this and honestly the only reason I haven’t ran back to my own bed to wait this out.

[narcolepsy]

[ oh. ]

Oh.

[ inexplicably, baein shouldn't be happy that he's the only person that secures hunter to the group, but perhaps it's more that he feels less useless like this, less of a burden, if he can do something for someone else instead of constantly taking from them, even if they offer it. ]

I'm very glad you're here. I... I can understand that feeling with you too.

[adistraction]

[ nodding he reaches to cradle Baeins face in his hands and smiles again. ]

That’s why I said we don’t have to kiss again. I don’t want to ruin this if it makes it weird.

[ on that note…]

Does…the whole blood drinking thing make everyone frisky or is that just cause of this thing that’s making us all warm?

[narcolepsy]

[ baein leans into hunter's hands, and then he nods. ]

I'm not feeling weird, but I understand what you mean.

[ he's not that hungry now, obviously, and his body has cooled a little from the... previous excitement, though he's still a little jittery overall. ]

Mm, I don't think it does? Normally? I've never... I mean, I've only ever fed properly from Lennon. Jasper too, but I don't remember it much. And Daeshim— I can't.

[adistraction]

[ his thumbs brush lightly over the others cheeks and he nods a little. ]

Honestly, I’m not surprised that Lennon gets turned on by it. Plus, you’re cute.

[narcolepsy]

I... what?

[ he manages to flush red, having just fed and all, and he blinks at hunter. it's as if he simply can't comprehend people calling him cute, but at least he's not protesting (for now). ]

[adistraction]

[ he’s gonna pretend it’s a misunderstanding. BRB. ]

Sexy? You’re sexy. You’re cute too but definitely sexy.

[narcolepsy]

[ he frowns a little, the flush darkening, and instead he just drops his forehead onto hunter's shoulder, though he's laughing a little bit. ]

Then you are as well. You know that, right?

[adistraction]

No, you’re different.

[ he chuckles quietly and just loosely snuggles the other. ]

They all look at you differently. Trust me.

[ he isn’t upset over this, either. ]

You have a certain shine I don’t.

[narcolepsy]

[ baein freezes in place for a second before he reaches around hunter again to squeeze him tight. ]

...please don't compare us. I'm not better than you.

[adistraction]

[ blinking, he still briefly at the squeeze before he noses against him on reflex, arms looping around him better again. ]

Sorry.

[narcolepsy]

You have a shine to me.

[ the vampire hums a little and seems to relax. ]

I'm not better than anyone.

[adistraction]

[ that shouldn’t hit as hard as it does but it warms a little corner of his heart that he keeps locked away.

His fingers curl a bit in the others shirt and he nods against his shoulder. ]

I wish I knew you before.