[what lennon confesses to, it's no surprise to him. if he'd stopped there, daeshim probably wouldn't have thought anything more about it. but lennon asks him to think about it. it's not a bad thing. it probably means that lennon has learned him well. but the fae is surprised at where his own thoughts lead.]

I think...it would bother me if Bae liked you more than he likes me.

[it doesn't feel good to say it. it even feels wrong, in a way. but it's the price of not being able to lie and not being willing to play with words when he's talking to those who are close to him. a part of him even wishes that he could pull away from lennon, because it might help him think more clearly. but he's not willing to do that either.]

It should not. He's not the Bae that I knew and loved, but...

[it still feels like he's been rejected, even if he knows that he's not the daeshim that he knew and loved either.]